My vow to my Romeo

Things have been quite overwhelming lately. Done with my second last semester and going through internship at a friendly place with great people around me, having my fiancé leave me at this place again, only this time, he left because he wants to finish up his degree and move on with the next phase in his life. 

If anyone knows me well, they would know that i am blogging again either because i'm bored, or it just so happens that i have something on my mind to share with the world. I've been so drown with the idea of getting over with the bachelor degree already that i forgot how much this place has affected my life. I met a whole bunch of awesome friends that i will never ever leave and forget for the rest of my life. I found my true love. I finally indulge in something that i love doing, being around people, reading them, knowing them and dealing with them. 

I'm not a cryptic person, nor am i a heartless bitch. I'm still trying to find out who i am and what i will be. But everytime i look at my left hand, it reminds me that there is a man out there, missing me, wishing i was there with him. I sound so mushy and irritatingly in love. Trust me, i'm just trying to get this off my system. If sharing my love story with the world is a crime, then i apologize. 

Ezuan has been great, lovely, the best thing that's ever happen to me. He's my fairytale. We have been through a lot together. Ups and downs, highest point in my life now and lowest that i was ever in. I know i'm only 24, I have a lot more to go through in life. Ezu brings out the best in me. He seems to be so ignorant and heartless at first, i said that because he never once was jealous of the many guy friends i had, i once thought he did not have the slightest romantic bone in him. Seemed to be a realist and thought that saying "I love you" may seem enough. I guess KL really did change him. (Thank God it wasn't me who tried to change him) 

Distance works for us, it taught him that loving someone is not just by saying I love you, but also showing the gesture of loving the person. He turned to be a perfect gentleman, took care of me as if i'm some brittle hearted little girl that he could not afford to hurt even one scratch. I finally found someone who could love me as me, not trying to change anything about me. Ezu would take a bullet for me, set aside his own life just to please mine, sacrifice everything in his power just to put a smile on my face. I am so fortunate, so blessed to have someone so perfect to walk along the whirlwind of my life. 

I have read numerous love stories from books, magazines, where ever it may be, i just hope and wish that my love story lasts a lifetime.

So, sweetheart, i vow to be the best person i can be, to cherish every single moment of our time together, be your strength when you need it, be the light that shines on you, always be there for you, come hell or high water and hope that our love may last a lifetime, eternally. Forever and always.

Amira Saryati Binti Misnu

Midnight in Lakeside

(Title from the 2011 movie Midnight in Paris)

I figured if i post multiple statuses on Facebook, people would just simply get annoyed with me. And on Twitter too. Readers would be thinking like "What the hell is wrong with this girl? Weird no?" I think it's due to having so much workload, i suddenly feel very restless even when i am suppose to be sleeping. Thus the post on this long abandoned blog.

As i always do, i update about my surrounding. I would like and love to highlight the fact that i do not hold any grudges to anyone but i am not at that stage where i would go around making amends to everyone who hates me. That's just plain weird. I know it's a good thing being the bigger person to actually say sorry even when you have done nothing wrong (in your opinion, doesn't mean that you are perfectly right) but i think i'll just let everything flow as it is and insya'Allah one day if it's meant to be, it's meant to be.

I am way way WAY past the whole drama thing, grudges and all that. I think i'm too old for high school shenanigans. It's best to stay far from the action and not even be at the sideline to keep yourself updated to what the hell is going on. Guess what, i think to highlight and prioritize our own life is way better than trying to fix someone else's. God knows how many people out there tried to fix me but in the end it showed that i will change when i want to change. So i guess i would just go with the flow.

I get very emotional and easily influenced by what i see and hear. I am not sure as to if it is a good thing or a bad thing. I have so much on my mind. Like literally. When i write all the things down, it didn't seem that much but i guess the capacity of my brain cannot withstand the amount of thoughts i have. Take note people, writing down what is on your mind and posting it on the wall, helps you remember and takes some of the load off your shoulder.

To those out there, who are working and studying at the same time, i salute you! I am still trying to do so. Trying to divide my time well. Sometimes when there is so much to be done, i loose track on some of the things that i was suppose to know about. Studying, working and taking care of your family, ain't an easy job. So people who thinks that mothers do nothing just because you see them lying around the house at times, think again. I think half of my energy got drained and i only have a fiancé to take care of. Ya Allah SWT please ease my future a little. I don't believe in parading your wishes and prayers to God in public because as i once said to my friend, God does not have Facebook or Twitter. Simpan ngan dikmpun sudehhhhh.

If this post was an essay, i swear, the person marking this will be like, "What the hell is this girl trying to say? Issues are all scattered everywhere!" LOL I know. I just have a lot on my mind that i wanna let out.

This coming 3rd of April, Ezu and i will be celebrating our 2 years Engagement Anniversary. Another 2 years to go and then it's sealed Insya'Allah. That song Ours by Taylor Swift is the song of my life now. I do not personally adore her but i like her songs. Meaningful as it is. Dear sweetheart and i bought each other a gift for the anniversary. :)

I wish everyone all the happiness in the world. Take care and good night.

xoxo
Mea