Monday, October 18, 2010

You know i'm one of a kind, there'll never be another me

Can't get me out of your mind?
You're lost in your own fantasy!
And when you look in my eyes
Is it hard for you to realize?
She'll never be me!

I've been off the grid lately. Hardly update my blog at all. I know i know I've been neglecting it like hell. Poor bloggy. It's okay love, i'll update you on a daily basis soon enough. Semester is almost over. This semester is not as good as before. I prefer last semester more.

It's the 3 years anniversary last September. It was awesome. Not magical but I'm not complaining. I miss Ezuan a lot nowadays. Kinda wish for him to be next to me 24/7, 365.

Speaking of which, Ezu told me about one of his friend, he dislikes her a lot and i wish so much to meet her so i can tell her off to her face. Mess with my fiancée, i'll hunt you down to the ground woman and i swear you'll wish you were never born.

Oh well, that's it for now i guess.

Baby baby baby ooo...


Tuesday, July 6, 2010

So kiss me and smile for me, tell me that you'll wait for me, hold me like you'll never let me go

I'm leaving on a jetplane
Don't know when i'll be back again
Oh babe, i have to go

I just got back from KL for the Media trip. It was awesome. We visited a few places. Bernama, Media Prima, Malay Mail, RTM, Jabatan Filem Negara, Red Com, Berjaya Hotel. We learned a lot about the industry as a whole as well as had a sneak-peek on what we are going to do when we enter the working phase, in Broadcasting as well as in PR. My pictures are mostly with Izzat and the Fiancee. I didn't bring my camera along as i thought it was a hassle, plus the Fiancee prepared a camera for me to use anyways.


omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg...
It was awesome. I haven't seen him for almost a month, and when i did again, i was in KL! Usually he will be the one flying down to Miri to see me but this time, since i was going for the Media trip, so it's like killing two birds with one stone. Woot woot...

We had a slight technical difficulties the first night we arrived. The hotel was a total no-no believe me! We moved to Boulevard hotel for the night and then ended up at Sky Hotel after that. I wasn't planning on going shopping as i had all my essentials with me. Plus, i was planning to eat a lot rather than shop. Turns out, i went on a shopping frenzy right after the media trip ended. Good Lord, my money just flew away in an instant.

Went to Carls Jr., Chillis, Wondermilk, Wendy's, McD drivethru and a bunch of other places to eat. Watch Knight and Day also in GSC Times Square. Shopped at Petaling Street, Bukit Bintang Plaza - Sungei Wang, went to Mid Valley, Suria KLCC, and God know where else. It was hectic yet enjoyable. Seriously, i'll have a trip like that again next time. Trust me i will! =)

I also manage to see Dinesh and Sedut. Didn't hang out much but it's okay. Just as long as i get to see them. Met Ezu's friends as well. Arm was a delight to hang out with. Farid was a bit quiet and seem to have a smile on his face all the time. Munir disappeared after a while. Hizir was totally cute. He was the one always getting bullied (well, not those violent thingy, just being teased all the time) and yet he just laughs about it. It was so cute, really. I don't have to worry about Ezu being with the wrong people there 'cause as far as i'm concern, he's in good hands, and so am i. I have great friends around me who supports me in life, as well as in studies. It's just awesome.

Now i'm back in Miri. It made me regret going back early. Seriously. Should've stayed a few days longer. Hmph... I miss my fiancee a lot already... but it's okay. We'll be together again in no time!


Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Sometimes i feel like my heart will overflow.

Hello, I just got to let you know.
Cuz i'll wonder where you are and i'll wonder what you'll do.
Are you somewhere feeling lonely or is someone loving you.
Tell me how to win your heart for i haven't got a clue.
But let me start by saying i love you.

Is it me you're looking for?

I just finish watching Glee. SO LATE? I know right. I've been so caught up in my studies that series i bothered to download and keep myself up-to-date was only How I Met Your Mother, The Vampire Diaries and True Blood. HIMYM was because, let's face it, it's just Awesome! I mean seriously, come on, tell me you haven't heard of the whole Barney Stinson and his theories. As for the other two, i just like fantasies, i like fictions. I like Vampires! Twilight Saga is not exactly what i have in mind. Then again, the books are awesome though.

Jessy St. James sings well. He's got one awesome voice. Not to forget Neil Patrick Harris too.

What did you ask? Studies? Yea, you read right. I typed studies there. Hehe... Yes! Damn it. I studied okay. I know i know, Mea + Studying = Lying / Shocker. But yea, swallow the truth! I actually studied this time. Hardly ever miss class without a reasonable excuse.


And yes, i changed my course to Bachelor of Arts, Majoring in Mass Communication, PR Stream. If only i took this from the very beginning, I would actually graduate next semester. It's okay. Everything happens for a reason right?

So yea i answered issue no TWO already.

Until next time when i actually have more to say.


Tuesday, June 22, 2010


When you watch a movie or listen to a song, it has this impact where it can influence your emotions for the moment. Lets say watching Gossip Girl. It makes me want to try to relate what happens in my daily life to what happens on screen. Can't deny that there is a side of me who wants my life to be like what's portrayed on the silver screen. Then again, no drama in reality happens that way. Well, that's what i think.

I watched the last episode of Gossip Girl season 3 last night. Only last night. I know it was out a long time ago. Due to busy schedule, i can't find the time to download. In the last episode Dan Humphrey and Blair were talking about signs in life. How the Empire State Building was to be the symbol of Chuck and Blair's relationship.

I had my own fair share of sign in relationship experience today. Not exactly relationship but perhaps friendship? I was suppose to meet up with one of my closest friends, but then, as expected, my friend bailed on me. Not that i was putting high hopes to see this friend, but it would be nice if a promise is kept. I'm tired of trying to make things happen. Right now I'll just wait for it to happen. If it doesn't, then that means it's not meant to be.

I was feeling very crestfallen (a new word i learn today. it means sad and disappointed. =P ). I don't think i deserve to be treated in such way. I was asking myself why i let my ancient feelings resurface. And just at the moment that i asked myself, a very very very familiar song played on Mix.FM. Guess what? Never Had A Dream Come True by S Club 7. Seriously? Can my mind be more obvious on playing tricks with my feelings? Goodness gracious me! Watching LBS just now, also made me reminisce about my past. The one thing that made me snap back to reality was when...

My fiancee called and said "Happy Anniversary baby!!!". Oh My God! I FORGOT ABOUT IT! This is the first time i actually forgot our monthsary. Then, i flew back to reality and thought of how awesome my fiancee is and to what extend he would jump the miles for me. There you go, 4 months ago, i address Ezu as my boyfriend or the Boyfriend, but now, he's no longer my boyfriend. He's my fiancee, my one true love. No matter how bad life drops on me, i know for a fact i will always have him. He's my savior, my knight in shining armor, my prince charming. No matter how my past drags me back, I know my future triumphs it all.

So here's some pieces on my number ONE puzzle. =)

So Ezu sayang,

Happy 33rd Monthsary Love

I love you so much Abg and i can't wait to spend my lifetime loving you.

I'm you Mea, i'm your Mira, your Kate and Katerina. I'm everything you want me to be.

See you when i see you, Love.


Rainy Holidays

Welcome again to my lovely readers, how ever much you may be, as you all know, when the holiday begins, that means I'm back. Miss me?

I know you totally do.

What did u miss, you ask?

Well a lot actually. Like for example, one, I'm engaged. Two, I am no longer a business student and currently enrolled under Bachelor of Arts, where i belong (Will tell you the details in time). Three, new people in town, new faces on the spotted list, new entourage. Four, old flames die hard and finally five, i am back here, right where I started.

So before, it seems like my life is so boring, like i have nothing to say, and just when i was getting comfortable, all the drama, scandals and everything i worked on not getting in to, have found its way to me, rising from the ashes. Shocker! I know, I'm lame. That may be it, but then again, sometimes i don't know who i am anymore. Care to tell me? Be my guest.

You know how people living in other parts of the world like the Northern or Southern hemisphere gets to say, summer holidays, spring break, winter holidays and the fall dance? From where i am, it's rainy holidays or freakin' hot breaks or haze holidays. And right now, it's option one of three.

Friends, family, foes, frienemies,

How's rainy holidays treating you?

I'd give up anything in this world to eliminate the last 2 out of four i mentioned above, but they just have to exist. I know i know, no one wants enemies. Apparently they're not trying hard enough to banish enemies and frienemies off their list. If people wanna be friends with you, it's an honor and it's an opportunity. If they chose the path less traveled, then who are you to deny them their freedom of rights, true?

I lost a friend this year. Not physically, God forbid, I would never want it that way. She was one that i valued in life and when i lost her, at first it was unbearable. How would you feel if you lost a friend who you took in when her world was falling apart, or a friend who you would trust your hearts out? A friend whom you learnt made mistakes and bad decisions but you still stuck with her? How exactly was i to forget to have such friend? It wasn't easy believe me, but hey, life moves on. I moved on. When people make big mistakes, stupid decisions, i was, most of the time, there for them and never chose sides, but when i was in their shoes, i don't get that same treatment i hoped for. Well guess what, you thought me this way. I can be the best friend in the world you can find, but i can also be the worst friend you could rely on. Just choose which you prefer.

Besides the whole "friends-walk-away-but-they-leave-footsteps-in-your-heart" episode of my OH-so-BORING life, i was stuck in a position where i was force to decide what kind of friend i should be. The best friend who only knows to look out for you in your best interest, or the supportive i'm always here for you if you need me, but if you don't i'm not there type of best friend. So which path have i chosen?

The truth is, i don't know. I try my very best to look out for my loved ones best interest, but it always, and trust me when i say this, ALWAYS backfires to me again. (Seriously, God, are you trying to punish me because i care too much about others? I need your answer 'cuz i'm desperately in need of a sign here.) I want to be the friend that you can have under all weather and conditions, but then again, i have my do's and don't's. I admit, i'm not exactly the center of attention in the social status right now, or ever, or not that i ever want to be, but i'm just done with the whole putting myself out there, testing the market and all. I'm done. Parties for me are like bitter medicine, i only eat it when i really really really have to, as if my life depends on it.

So, with regards to prior situation in discussion, some people just like it when i stay out of their businesses and laundries. I realize that when you're trying to offer help to people who don't think they need it, then you're just going to be making a fool out of yourself. I tried my best to protect the people i love, truth is, they don't want to be protected. I just don't want to go through the whole empire-crumbling-down-and-putting-the-pieces-back-together stage. I was trying to avoid it from happening. But i guess, rules of nature just have to be followed.

So there, I've told you bits and pieces of the number THREE, but not exactly everything yet. If you're so bored to your bones, not knowing what to do to fill in your free time, keep yourself updated. There's bound to be more coming from me. Those are not even remotely close to the things i wanna tell you about. Keep yourself posted aight?


Thursday, May 20, 2010

Here I Am Again

It's been so long since i updated my blog. It's been a very busy semester and i just didn't feel any need to blog before. But today I think I just wanna let it out eh.

I just don't feel like myself anymore. I'm actually doing work, which is a good thing. But... ntah la. Kan easy if i don't have a heart. Then i'd just feel numb. Senang kecil hati already now? Weird kan. OMG...

Drama Production editing going on.

till next time,

Monday, May 3, 2010


I know i've been away from my blog for a VERY VERY long time. And so i shall be again. I'm sorry but i am very busy right now and i don't have time for blogging. Until next time when i am free. =)

the One and Only,

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

How beautiful it is, just to be like this...

Current song : I Wanna Be With You
(By Mandy Moore)

Oh baby i can't fight this feeling anymore.
It drives me crazy when i try to.
So call my name, take my hand.
Can you make my wish baby, your command.

I use to go crazy over this song and play it on repeat every night when i was 13. I have every song for every ex boyfriend by then and i remember perfectly who this song was for. The same person who makes me smile when i listen to Mad by Ne-yo (coincidence much that right after I Wanna Be With You, Mad played? Seriously?). I had issues with my feelings before but i am all good now. I finally sorted things out. Realized i can live without any guy in my life, i can live even without the Boyfriend. But i know one thing for sure, i won't survive if he's not around. He's like my life line (it's beginning to turn into an emo-post.. oh dear..).

I finally watched Glee. It's not about being in the loop like everyone else, but it's the matter of curiosity. I mean, come on, the show's won a few awards and it's barely finished 1 season. So this phenomenon should be like super Effing good right? So i went ahead and watched it. I laughed my ass off watching episode 4. No, seriously. I literally rolled on my bed laughing. It's got a nice story line, it's not really as spectacular tho. I'm not throwing myself into the fever, like i did gossip girl, but it makes me curious enough to keep on watching.

I watched the award shows on time but for me, the dresses this year is not really *kaboooom* you know. It's just an *eh... ok*. Kinda disappointed because most people watches award shows for the performance, the amazing unaffordable outfits and just to know who wins. I liked Fergie's dress for Oscars. I liked Lea Michele's dress for Grammy's. Looking forward for Academy Awards. *winks*

The Vampire Diaries is back on track. AWESOME~ Yea, i started watching it again, and downloading. My lappy's hard disk is like left with 2GB. No seriously! Sending my baby for maintenance and also updates. Kinda sad to be away from my MacBook. But it's okay. After 2 weeks, it's gonna be updated to Snow Leopard! Woot woot!!! I can't wait to watch Vampire Diaries full season! Elena and Stefan, Matt and Caroline.. Bonnie with Ben? Will Damon be with Katherine? I wanna knowww!!!!

Until next time.

the One and Only,

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

We're not the same, like we use to be..

Current Song : The Ice is Getting Thinner
(By Death Cab For Cutie)

Sometimes when i think about it, TV drama is just meant for TV ain't it? Whatever happens on Gossip Girl, stays on Gossip Girl. It doesn't happen to us? Does it? Well, the drama, maybe, but dude, they're filthy rich. Makes me sad.. =(

I run out of ideas on what to blog nowadays. Until next time..

the One and Only,

Saturday, January 23, 2010

2 years 4 months and counting!

Thinking about what the future has in stored for me. Missing the Boyfriend. And busy with work. The Sri-Lankan brother called me this afternoon. Goodness gracious i miss them both so much. I'll wait for the moment i'll be with them both again! =)

Happy 28th Monthsary my darling Love

I can't tell you how much i miss you. And thank god for technology, i found skype for Mac. Yeay... Skype-ing with the Boyfriend all the time now! YAY ME!

the One and Only,

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

From the moment that i saw your face and felt the fire in your sweet embrace...

I know most people says that sparks fade in time. You're in love today, and tomorrow but not the day after. I feel like a little kid when it comes to feeling all giddy and up in the air. I think it's because God looked down to me and reminded me of the purpose of living, and how to live a peaceful life. Honestly, i've got everything i ever wanted. Everything. There's not even 1 wants or needs in my life that is not fulfilled. And i learned something that made my life a better place, forgiveness. Forgive and forget. And yes, i choose to forgive and forget everything in the past. The good memories i treasure, the bad ones, i learn from them. The most important thing is i forgive everyone who has ever wronged me in the past and move forward. Don't get me wrong, please. I'm not specifying and pointing fingers. I'm not saying out names. I'm not doing all that. It's not what you think. Seriously, i am just stating this as how i feel. I don't hate any of you. Hatred can only bring you this far. Forgiveness has no boundaries. Sky is the limit. I just wanna live in peace and serenity. This is the year i choose to start over. Open up a new chapter in my book of life.

Raula, Hillie, Nadea, Jay, Anum, Dya, Efa, Abby and Fiz..

The 9 of you mean so much to me. You have been there, touched my life, and influences it in so many levels. Thru thick and thin. Raula and Efa, you were there for me when i had to go through with my father's wedding. Hillie, Nadea, Abby, Fiz and Jay, need i say more about the 5 of you? We went through everything, ups and dows, lefts and rights($%^%##????), and still, here we are. It's bullshit to say that friends don't argue, they do, but they always have a way back to each other. Anum and Dya, you were there for me since Kolej. If i didn't say this enough, Thank you, i appreciate everything.

I always felt like happiness and happy endings are meant for fairy tales only. That it doesn't exist in real life. But i have learned that it is not something you wait to fall in place, it's something that you have to work for to earn it. If you have worked hard enough and practise all the good values that you were taught of, if you deserve it, that God will reward you with a fairytale ending.

I am in love, very in love. In love with everything. My friends, my life, my parents, my family, My one and only God, and to Him i shall thank for giving me the opportunity to know Idzuan Ismail.

the One and Only,

Sunday, January 3, 2010

And one day my little girl, will reach out her hand, She'll know i found The Right Man!

Current song : The Right Man by Christina Aguilera
(Something i got from Hillie's blog, and maybe i should start using this also, if you don't mind love.)

And i am now at the office. Boring. Missing the Boyfriend so much
(i think now i need to start to find a new nickname for him, considering he might not be my boyfriend for long, and soon i'll be engaged. the Fiancee will sound too tacky. I need a dictionary!). I'm feeling happy, joyful, blessed and content. Very calm and peaceful. It's a good feeling to feel for new years. First post of the year yo! Now i should think of a new ending for my blog posts as well. Cherrio, xoxo is soooooo last year. I'm glad that one of my favourite song influenced my friends. The Right Man by Christina Aguilera is a very nice song. Hillie likes it now. =D

I'm taking up her request on posting up my
Top 10 Sexiest Man On Earth list. =P

No. 10 : Kellan Lutz

No. 9 : Josh Duhamel

No. 8 : Paul Walker

No. 7 : Ryan Reynolds

No. 6 : Taylor Lautner

No. 5 : Ben Barnes

No. 4 : Chace Crawford

No. 3 : Justin Timberlake

No. 2 : Chris Evans

No. 1

And there you go, My list of my very own top 10 Sexiest Man On Earth. Some people will be like "urgh, duh` of course..." when seeing this i bet. *giggles* May the rest of the year be an awesome one! Good luck people!!!

the One and Only,