i couldn't turn on the tv without something there to remind me... -PART 1-

i'm back in kch once again. getting use to the routine of being in Miri for about 5 months and then back home in Kuching for more or less a month plus. I kinda felt uncivilized and going insane for not having internet connection at home. seriously. stupid phone company not connecting phone wire post yet at my house area. damn it! anyways, i'm currently meditating in Starbucks, the Spring for a while for internet.

I can't express how much i miss Miri this time. It's like different than all the other holidays. This time it felt like everything is going out the window. Nothing will ever be the same. it just broke my heart. i cant believe how attached i am to everything and everyone in miri. till a point where i would cry every time i think about it. even watching E! channel makes my tears drop. WTF? i would remember the times when me and van watch E! together and then Abby n Fidah join us. damn i'm so emo right now. in starbucks? people already thought i was crazy for laughing in front of my laptop, what more to say when i cry here? sheesh... i miss waking up in my room, in my bed, seeing baby love when i wake up. i can't say in the morning cuz i usually wake up at 1pm. so yea.. i thought when i got back to Kuching my sleeping habit will be back to normal, but what the hell? it stayed the same way. my dad had to call my sister at 12 noon to wake me up. see how crazy that is?

anyway, i miss the burger stall in miri. i miss having supper with the people i love. with my baby love, with Abby, Hoe, Dinesh, Azfar. i think it's been 3 posts about this already. I'm sorry to keep repeating it cuz i really can't let it go. this is the first time in my life that i feel like it's the hardest thing to let go of everything. Even when Dira went back to Kuching and not coming back to miri anymore, i felt okay cuz i know i'll see her again. but this time, even i know i'll be seeing fidah again, and abby, and van... it just won't be the same. I've nver been this attached in my life.



miss that dining table. pvffff... wtf? miss playing big 2 with danny and daniel.



cooking for us? pvfff...

there's a lot more pictures i want to post up. but the internet connection is being stupid. there will be a part 2 of this. till then...

xoxo

i'm gonna smile cause i deserve to, it'll all get better in time...

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remaind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time


The song explains it all. Current mood, the current song i'm listening to. I am really sad these few days huh? Surprised? I don't think so. Abby's been asking me why am i in an emo-state again. The thing is, i don't have the answer. I just don't. I miss home so much. I miss my cousins, my parents, my room, my gramma... i miss everything about home. But i'm not ready for this semester to end. NO!!! I'm not ready to leave my friends behind. Not ready for them to leave me just yet. But i'm anxious to meet my cousins back home. I wish i can stop time and divide myself into half. How selfish of me.

But no matter what, i know i couldn't live without my friends, but if they have to leave, i know i will get better in time. =)



Dinesh ;) , Abby, Hoe and Fidah's fingers... Dinesh's sem farewell.



Shannon, me, Dinesh, Abby



Azfar, Shannon, Dinesh, Hoe



Azfar and me



Baby love, Azfar, Dinesh, Hoe - House 3570




Me, Hillie, Shannon



Shannon, Dinesh, Me, Abby, Hoe



Hillie, Abby, Me

I'll post up more photos later. =) till next time.


Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

xoxo

it's the way you make me feel...

today, well, tonight, i decided to fuck the capital letters at the beginning of every sentence. turn lazy tonight. so yeah. anyway, it's funny how i'm still caught up with my emo-state since last night. PMS? maybe but i don't think so. everyone i have loved came into my life just to leave. some left for good, some are just around but we grew apart. something that Abigail told me the second semester i was here in curtin was that friends come and go. literally. tonight, this post is about my friends, whom are now long gone or far far away, i do miss you. you know who you are.

i don't understand how i get like this suddenly. writing this in the center of noises but i can still manage to concentrate pouring out my thoughts.

i miss i miss i miss i miss i miss i miss i miss i miss i miss i miss i miss... a lot of people. i miss having my friends around, not that i have any. a few that i think i lost. i don't regret the past. i don't regret knowing them. just that it sucks they had to go. but oh well.

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something off topic i know, but i really wanna dance right now. wish i can clear this dining table and and hang on a disco ball, off the lights and just on the red light we have at home and start dancing. i know van and abby will join me. my baby love will be next in line with danny n dinesh to shuffle on the floor. and when azfar gets back. the party starts. hahahahaha...

iTunes : Speedwave Zhangar

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i admit my high school time was fucked up like hell. i always felt like an outcast. never had real friends. i don't know why at one point. until i got close with a few people. Adira Kamil, my best friend, my sister... i love her till death do us part. i'd do anything for her. i'd sacrifice anything for her. that's what sisters are for. i thought it was enough that i'm always there for her, but now i know better, it's never enough. Nadya Natasha, babe i love you so much and i know you know that. seriously. *grins* you know, i know. enough till there. true? not like you'll be reading it but just in case. she was at one point my twin in school. where there's Dya, there's me and vice versa. Dzimmo was once a very very very close friend of mine. he was my bestfriend. i can tell him anything and everything. he helped me through my pain with family and a lot more. i do miss him. really. but what can i do. like what i mention friends come and go. Zaharah Hanum, she's the bestfriend i had after high school was over. funny isn't it? we were friends for so long and suddenly after school, we got together for a few movies and suddenly we're inseparable. We always have time for each other. and somehow after years of not knowing whether i was remembered or forgotten, Niesa Z. came back to my life. we had a really big fight - and then we just grew apart. a lot. she basically hates me right now i think. but i do admit, i miss her a lot. there's nothing i can do about it. i can't have anyone in my life who does not want to be in it. true?

and after, i thought friends can be replaced, but no. i've learnt that you can only make more friends. and not replace them. no matter how bad you want to. there's where fidah, abby, van and hillie came in the picture. i'm forever grateful that i know these four bitches. girls, i am forever grateful. i hope you don't have to go and always be there. it's like i wanna freeze time and not let anything change.

for other friends that i do not mention, it's not that i don't appreciate you, it's just that you're descriptions are saved for my blog posts to come. =)



angelic van - courtesy of mea's phone



Jazz Fest



woman! stop taking pictures of yourself



nice shades feeds *hints hints*



pretty princess



neighbour

some pictures i will upload another time. currently using baby love's laptop. so i had to make do with what i have. till next time.

xoxo

~It's larger than life + Tribute to my dearies~

Right after watching P.S I Love You i felt like blogging. PVFFFFFFF... Random much? And yeah, Azfar decided to peep on my laptop when i'm typing. Even shout at my ear. WTH??? Hahahahaha... Well, that is the big guy. Can't live with him, can't live without him either. It's been a month since i blogged. Well, for the past month, it was exam time and most of the nights was Boy Bands karaoke nights. SWEEETTT!!!~ Well, most of the times it was me and Fiddy singing and Gala making his over expression face and hand motions following the lyrics of the song. Things are certainly not going to be like this again next semester. Azfar and Hoe leaving for Perth. I'll be back where i started. Baby love moving back to hostel. I'm left with Fiddy, Abby, Van, Gala and Dinesh. Danny also said he's going off to Australia. Probably for sure this time. It's like writing a tribute or something.


-TO ABBY-
Please let the others know about this. They might not know about what i'm writing here for their marvelously ignorance to blogs. Especially who i'm writing it to. And don't worry. There will be something for you as well.

This semester is about to end, and i'm really sad about it. I don't want all this to fade away just like that. I don't want it to just disappear like it's invaluable. To me, it's the most priceless time i've ever had in my life. Somehow i feel like crying when i'm writing it. But i can't. Azfar, Gala, Fidah, Hoemak and Abby is here. It's just wrong. I'll continue from Coffee Bean



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So now here i am, continuing my blog writing at Coffee Bean. With my Baby love staring at the screen of my laptop while eating lagsana. pvffffff... Eat first then look elsewhere can? Starting to use the Dinglish right now. It's so not cool. I had a few bites on the blueberry crumble but it's not as delicious. Apple or banana crumble would be better. Wonder if they can sell something similar to my Aunty Nani's Cheese Peach Pie. Love it. My dearies of 3570 loves them too. Especially Van, always waiting anxiously for it every time i return from a trip to Kuching. I'm kinda lost about what i wanted to write, what i'm suppose to write and what i want to write now. We'll start with what i wanted to write.





~What i WANTED to write~



House 3570 has been the best thing that's ever happened to me and i would like to express it all out now before it's too late. I've made friends there, lost friends too and either get involved or witness fights amongst friends and foes. We're the multi-racial clan that gets along very well and i quote Fidfy, *You rarely see that happening nowadays. NO! SERIOUSLY!* Well it's true you know. Most people only hang out with either people of their same race or from the same place.

Dinesh ---> (who most people in the house call Jega, Dog, Jegs or Danish) is from JB/KK (who's racially a Sri Lankan, not Indian, but culturally a chinese),

My baby love ---> from KK as well (Abby refers to him as the Pirate boy -due to his Suluk racial background),

Hoe ---> a chinese boy from KL (Mr Megat Johan Iskandar Shah - figure it out for yourself)

Abg Azfar ---> my Kolej senior whom i first feared for a couple of years for his brutal-ness during the Kolej era and i befriended when i'm in Curtin (don't quite know how to describe his race though)

Van ---> my Filipino friend, whom i knew from Azfar. (Like b'duh! They're together, well sort of, or maybe or maybe not. I DON'T KNOW)


And then there's...


Fidah ---> a bruneian, Iqbal's cousin, and now a very close friend of mine.

Gala ---> (Some ethnic race that i kinda forget but it starts with a K, i think) Fidah's boyfriend, Azfar's best friend.

Abby Chu Chang Yee ---> the cute little chinese girl i knew from the house as well, and now Hoe's girlfriend.

Fariq ---> the malay guy from Ipoh! Mr Rugby President.

Joe Xavier ---> another chinese best friend of Azfar's who's graduating this sem.

Bel ---> Joe's girlfriend who is also chinese.


and some more people in the house that i don't know how to describe. Alvin, Daniel, Vimel, Shannon, Danny and maybe some other people that i forget to mention.


Well, it really bumps me out that some of my friend are leaving soon, transferring to Perth or graduating. It sucks that i've gotten so close and attached and now i have to let them go. Trust me when i say, i did not plan all this. I did not plan to get this close to them. Nor did i want to but it just happened. We were meant to be friends. I know i'm sad that my friends are leaving, imagine being their other half. I would kill me to let them go. But life goes on. (HAH* poetic much?) I'm being terribly emotional for some reason. I had this talk with Fidah the other day.. makes me very sad.


-TO HOE-

I HATE HOE FOR BEING CLOSE TO ME JUST WHEN HE WANTED TO LEAVE!!! Not his fault or maybe partially his fault. I was always scared of him before. He's like this bitter chinese guy who always gets mad at everyone. Well, like people on PMS u know. It's like sometimes random when he gets mad. Freaks me out. I was normally scared to ask him for favors BUT somehow, he turn out to be the best-weirdly-annoying friend i've ever had. I always thought that Dinesh would be that friend. Now i'm so gonna miss him when he fly off to Perth. Poor Abby, but we'll be there for you girl!!! I hope Hoe won't forget me after he finish his studies. All the nicknames he gave me. Sometimes i hate it when he calls me all that, but i've lived to absorb it and ignore. HAHA... Oh well, Mr. HoeMak, i'll miss you.


-TO FARIQ-

Along with him, i've been hanging out with Fariq for quite sometime. Not as close but he's a friend of mine. He's little crazy when he got wasted. NO! SERIOUSLY! Camry car? Ring a bell? The incident about the fling thing? The most cruel way to break off (not break up when you were never in a relationship) with a girl. A lot more things about him. He's graduating this sem and he promised to come and visit later on. Hope you do. And don't forget me. *sob sob*


-TO ABG AZFAR and VAN-

I was never really close to Azfar from the beginning but somehow him leaving makes me sad too. Deceived by appearance (which some people say he's a gangster and all, probably he is, in a good way) he is actually a very nice person and trustworthy. Honestly, i'm scared to talk to im half the time. Crazy shit? He always ignores me and act like i don't exist in the house. Well, not all the time. But sometimes. He came up with his ridiculous "math formula ; 1 over mea = ???" WTF??? hahahahaha... In case i don't dare to say it to you later Bg Aspa, will miss you when you're leaving. *hugs*
I know Van's gonna miss you badly. Heh... Van's like the big sister in the house and she acts more kiddy like sometimes. She's a fun person to hang out with and well, She's Van. =D


-TO ABBY AND FIDDY-

Abby and Fiddy, Thanks a lot for being with me through thick and thin. I love you 2 so much. You're (referring to both) like the person i turn to when i get all down and share problems with. We don't normally agree on everything, but still, You two are the best. You're the closest i have to Dira. Even though i miss her so much and she never care about me nowadays, which i don't know why, you both filled up that space in my life. Seriously, i don't know what i would do without you both with me. I know whatever happens in next semester, i'll always have Abby and Fidah. My 2 girls. Fiddy girl, we have the same background and all, well, basically, well, u understand what i'm trying to say, i know how you feel, and i know, you know how i feel. (COMPLICATED MUCH???) Accyee, Girl, I love you guys!


-TO DANNY-

And i know this might be as random, but i'm glad to know Danny in my life. He might be pretentious, sometimes ignorance, but still, he's my friend and somehow my brother. (although after the break up with my sister thing) We may have issues, but we always work things out. I think. Well, whatever anyone thinks, or even you yourself think (referring to Danny) you're the friend whom i love and hopefully will stay in my life.

Dinesh is as annoying as usual. Hoe's other half. Hoe always goes down to Dinesh's room right after he wake up. It's the Chinese-Indian bond thing. Well, that's what they say. Dinesh will still be here anyways, so not much to say about him.

As for my Baby Love, i'm so excited for your trip to Kuching during my birthday! Love you sweetheart. *kisses*

And again Abby, thanks for being there for me. Somehow i know i'll always be there for you. It took me 2 cups of coffee and one slice of blueberry crumble and 2 fags to finish writing this, Gonna have another one after.

xoxo
MEA

P/S : HOE STOP LOOKING AT ME WHEN I'M WRITING THE BLOG.

Just to kill time

My answers from Phoebe's Blog.

My Dream Day Wedding

1. How old are you?
Still 19

2. Are you single?
taken

3. In what age do you think you'll get married?
25. when i start working.

4. Do you think you'll be marrying the person you are with now?
I sure hope i do. And yes i will!

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
Milo Ventimiglia *winks*

6. Do you want a garden/beach or a traditional wedding?
Garden wedding but traditional. Make sense?

7. Your ideal motive?
Silver and gold, with white and red roses deco.

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
Change of plans, Euro trip!!! England-Italy-Spain-Prague

9. How many guests do you think you'll invite?
Just family and close friends

10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
A girl's dream? Extravagant, but no, private and cherishable.

11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you'd make up on your own?
Do we need to? Vows can be said anytime you want to say, dont u think?

12. How many layers of cake do you want?
2. Just enough.

13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or a simple place?
Backyard of my house. Nothing too fancy.

14. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
Evening.

15. You'd rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
Preferably, Outdoors.

16. Do you like a grand entrance for your groom?
Anything.

17. Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding.
You're still the one - Shania Twain

18. Are you a morning person or a night person?
Night. I usually wake up in the afternoon.

19. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
Light.

20. What age do you want to get married?
25

21. Describe your ideal husband/wife.
Everything you want in a man. Everything i want from him.

22. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
Fine dining!

23. Champagne or red wine?
Sparkling Juice. Hahahaha...

24. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
Days after.

25. Money or household items?
Both. Money can buy household items.

26. Who will pay for the bills?
According to customs, the groom's side of the family. But in this case, I'd say, 50-50?

27. Are you ready for married life?
Yes.

28. Will you always be true to your wife/husband?
I know i will always be.

29. How many kids would you like to have?
Gods will. Depends

30. A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
Anything. I'm not picky.

31. Will you celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding or diamond wedding?
Diamond!!!!

32. What kind of cuisine would you like for your wedding?
Italian! hahahahahahaha...

33. Will you record your honeymoon in a CD or DVD?
DVD. I can't afford Blue Ray disc. :P

34. Whose wedding plans would you like to know next?
All my friends i linked. =) And who links me too.


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Lame much? Was bored. Can't help it. I miss my sis. =(

xoxo

It's been a while...

...since i write anything here. A month or so. Well, a lot has changed. I can't believe the only means im communicating with my sister is thru her blog. Something happened in her life and suddenly, she doesn't answer my calls. WTF??? Ever since she and her boyfriend had arguments past raya, she avoided my calls. started not texting me. I had to know what happen from HIS friends. FUNNY MUCH? I'm her sister. How can she not tell me? And after that she told me it's true. And that was it. No calls, No text msgs, NOTHING! And to think that my friends think i "supplied" information to her. HOW CAN I WHEN SHE'S NOT TEXTING OR ANSWERING MY CALLS??? God!!! I hate the guy so much now. Because of him, i loose my sister. If she never talks to me again, I SWEAR, i'll hate him for life. I knew her ever since i got into Kolej, I do not want to loose her now. Pheebs, i miss you!

xoxo

Headline of the Week

It's my 1 year anniversary!!! OMG! I can't believe it. This is officially my longest relationship. Hehehe... =) I'm happy!

xoxo

Song Of The Month

Keeps Getting Better - Christina Aguilera

Step Back! gonna come at ya fast
I’m driving out of control, and getting ready to crash
wont stop, shaking up what I can
I serve it up in a shot
So suck it up like a man

so baby yes I know what I am, and no I don’t give a damn
and you’ll be loving it

Some days I’m a super bitch
Up to my own tricks
but it wont last forever
next day I’m your super girl
and out to save the world and it keeps getting better

Kiss kiss, gonna tell you right now
I make it sweet on the lips, ill simply knock you out
Shut up! I dont care what you say
cuz when were both in the wind
you gonna like it my way
yeah baby theres a feeling in me
So sexy sour and sweet, and you’ll be lovin’ it

Some days I’m a super bitch
Up to my own tricks
but it wont last forever
next day I’m your super girl
out to save the world and it keeps getting better

Hooold on
keeps gettin better
Hooold on
keeps gettin better

in the break of the night
in the speed of the light
i hold the universe up
make the your planets collide.
When I strap on my boots
and I slip on my suit
You see the vixen in me
Becomes an angel for you

Some days I’m a super bitch
Up to my own tricks
but it wont last forever
next day I’m your super girl
out to save the world and it keeps getting better

Some days I’m a super bitch
Up to my own tricks
but it wont last forever
next day I’m your super girl
out to save the world and it keeps getting better

Hooooooold on
keeps gettin better
Hooooooold on
keeps gettin better


xoxo

Random

OMG! I have a new room mate in hostel. This is all Dira's fault. If she didn't leave, I won't be having a new room mate. Haha... Kidding Pheebs! I don't really mind. I was just shocked. Seriously? hahahaha... Yeay... today achievement. I woke up at 6.50 am to prepare for class. HIGH-5!!! I'm bored today and kinda HYPER so let me just say.. HOEMAK... lalalalala.. JEGAMAN!!!... lalalalala.. Van The Man!!!... lalalalala.. Abang ZUBRI!!!... lalalalala... (so pointless) HACCY!!!... lalalalala... ok i'm out. haha...

xoxo

Excited Much?

OMG! I can't believe i'm so excited to wait for 22nd September. Seriously. I've never been this excited since Pierre Cardin Lingerie's been the "it" item to have. It's my first serious relationship that has reach this far. Others might think it's pointless to brag about it, but hell i care what people think. It's about my life, my story. I have no idea what to get Ezuan for 22nd. He bought me a pair of heels already and it looks amazing!



TADAAAA!!! It's purple actually.

I have no idea where we're gonna have dinner. So so excited. Hehe... =) I wonder where. Excited!!!

xoxo

Yesterday

Eversince beginning of the semester, i don't remember having a lot of dates. Dates as in just me and Ezuan out on a romantic dinner. And the best thing is, It's not even our anniversary dinner. Ezuan just love to spend on me i think. Haha... Sweet dear boyfriend of mine. Anyways... yesterday, we were supposedly going to Secret Recipe (they just opened in Miri early this week) but the place was really packed. So, instead, we went to Hot Spot.



I know the place is kinda common to us, but the thought of just me and Ezuan going out for dinner in a quite, dimmed lighted place, seems so romantic.



My baby



Me

At first i just wanted to order very light foods. But then again, i ordered a bunch of things. Surprised?



Dish 1 : Cheese Baked Mussels



Dish 2 : My Chicken Cordon Bleu



Dish 3 : Ezuan's Lamb Chop

And another dish that i forgot to take picture was my seafood salad. The food was good, as always.

Last night, Manchester United put me down! Real bad. Seriously, how can they lose to Liverpool? And after that Chelsea won against Manchester City. Couldn't the night get any worst? Our neighbour 2 doors down had a party outside their house. They dragged Danny to have a shot and he said it taste like shit. Poor Danny. We were minding our own business after that playing cards like we always do, when suddenly we heard water splash outside. The sound was definately not rain, so the guys went out for a smoke and then they found out what happen. Mr Park Ji-Sung was vomitting into the drain and he suddenly did something to the pipe. No idea what he did, but it was bad. The meter pipe came off and the water just wouldn't stop. Both the taps were also gone. And they called the Fire Department for help and they send a rescue team like, really late. Probably after 3 hours they called. Bad right? I think if there was any real fire, the house would have burnt down in ashes before the rescue team arrive.

Meanwhile, Danny came up with a rule for the Big 2 game later on. Ezuan was sleepy and ready for bed already but Danny was hungry and he wants us to cook supper so he can join. So the thing was that, the cards was divided into 3 and here's the rules:

1. If Ezuan wins, no supper and we go straight to sleep.
2. If Danny wins, we cook supper and eat together.
3. If i win, it's a rematch.

The game went on and on because it's either me or Ezuan winning most of the rounds. Funny Danny. We end up cooking after all and then Abby join us. We had Cockles curry, Cornbeef and Beef curry, plus cencaluk. While we were eating, Azfar came back from somewhere... and he too join our supper. Got very full and it was a nice feeling to sleep on. Haha... Interesting day.

xoxo

Episode 2

"Hey Upper East siders,
Gossip Girl here. Your one and only source into the scandalous life of Manhattan's elite. As summer comes to an end, I'd like to share a few things i learned about fun in the sun. Gossip girl guide to summer tip number 1, don't fall asleep on the job. The best hook ups are free from morning breath and awkward conversation. The only thing harder than making up, is waking up.

You know you love me
XOXO
Gossip Girl"

Betrayed?

Can't really explain in detail, but that's how i feel. Supposedly we were close. Super close. Without any stupid secrets and suddenly, the bomb dropped! It was a silly stupid secret and i really felt betrayed. How come i did not know. And others was asked to keep it secret from me. MY OWN FRIENDS too. Who cares right? It's just me. No one would care. First my family doesn't. Now THAT PERSON! OMG. I don't know who to trust anymore. I feel so alone. I feel like crying, but is it worth it? So it's true. People out there are laughing behind my back. I feel so down. I don't know if i can ever feel good ever again. Why did you have to lie to me? You were my best friend, we're family. Why? And yet i still miss you so much! You do know that right? I hope you do. I miss you.

xoxo

Gossip Girl Much? during Mid-term?

"Hey Upper East siders,
Gossip Girl here. Your one and only source into the scandalous life of Manhattan's elite. Unlike the rest of us, sex, lies and scandals never take a vacation. Instead, they take the long island express way and head east, to the Hamptons. Some would say summer is their busiest season. Think Park Avenue, but with tennis whites and ban de sole. The players change but the game remains the same....

You know you love me,

XOXO
Gossip Girl


OMG seriously, Gossip girl season 2 is back. Can you spell DRAMA! Well, that show spells it well. Wish there was no acts like that pulled in college, but oh well, you know what they say, college years are the most fun to be in. Try most drama to be in. Hm... Thankfully Curtin drama isn't that bad. I think. How should i know when most of my time is spent off college grounds. I'll be there during class time and library. I don't hang out in the "food court" (my Marketing lecturer calls our cafe "food court" and she wants us to do so) that much. My friends do the same. I barely see them anymore. I miss Azura. We use to hang out A LOT. I gave her a nickname that she uses till now. Xxura. *smiles*

Mid term is going on for the next 2 weeks for most students in Curtin. I studied 2 nights in a row for Legal Framework and will be studying again soon. Accounting 101 next week. Dinesh said he could not study at all at home so he spent his day in the library with an attempt to study. Turns out, Mr JegaMan only studied for at least 1 hour during the whole 7 hours he was there. Most of the time doing what? You still need to ask? It's JegaMan for god sake. If it's not CABALing, then it'll be WINNING-ELEVENing. Dinesh created this whole new language he calls Dinglish. So when you start to talk like him, you're Dingli-FIED! hahaha... But still, Curtin wouldn't be the same without Mr JegaMan. (If you're reading this Dinesh, I DON'T MEAN IT!)

Azfar made an achievement today by losing 4kg's in 2/3 hours. Wow... From a 95 to a 91. Seriously! Cool right. If only i could, then i'd be damn happy! But oh well, laziness becomes me. Hahahaha... That's all i have to say.

For now.

xoxo

Ramadhan - Friends

Ramadhan is here. and next will be Syawal. OMG i so cannot wait for raya. Been in touch with my friends and the best thing is, how much i miss them. I called Dya just now, and guess what, we talked for half an hour about everything. EVERYTHING that matters.



Dya and Me

Miss her like crazy. Dya's my partner in crime back in high school, my sister. She sleepsover my house sometimes. We talk about everything. trust me, EVERYTHING! We talked about our friends as well, and how they're scattered around the world. Afif is in Texas, Dhil will be leaving for Dublin, Nora, Azry Z, and Ruzzane in Oz, bunch of them in Unimas (which is exactly opposite my house), lots in Uitm all over the country (tho Uitm Samarahan is just BEHIND my house), and what more to say scattered over the country. I lost track of where my school mates are. Chat with Dhil this afternoon in the library thru facebook.



Seriously, Facebook keeps you in touch with friends *winks* (PROMOTING). hahahahahahahaha... Will fill in again later. Need my oxygen for a while.

xoxo

Victory? NOT!!

And again, another saddening news. We lost our futsal match today. Against Tim's team. Karma huh? We beat them last semester and this semester we got beaten. How great. Abby was so bumped out obviously, she went missing after the match and i know somehow the blame was on me. I was their goalie. I really disappoint everyone this time. They hoped so much that we draw or win this time but yeah. The worst thing happen. At first it was about having fun but then yeah, we all got into the game so much that we cared about winning or losing. I wanted to win too. Really! but fate was just not on our side. Oh well, i'm just so bumped out.

xoxo

P.H.O.E.B.E.

I've been missing in action for a few weeks now. Everything seem to go wrong. Seriously. I have no idea why. Probably people change. People blend in with the environment. As for me and Ezu, we're doing good. We're still together. Going through hard times and fun times together. He's my foundation to be strong and i thank god that he loves me so much to even let me out of his sight for more than 4 hours.

My sister went to say goodbye to me just now and it breaks my heart to see her leave in tears. I can't take it. She's my source of strength. We use to have fun together. Be strong and weak together. Cry and laugh together. Can you imagine two armatures cooking in the kitchen? That's us. We had each others back to matter what. I love her so much. What use to be was that i'm the cry baby, i was always the weak one. But now everything has to change. She's not as strong, and i had to be strong for her. I really wanted to cry just now but i didn't. cuz i wanna show her i'm strong. But i can't. I really can't. I miss her already. I don't know why he did this to her. Can't he tell that she loves him so much? It's okay sis, i'm here for you. For all time. You know that when you need me i'll be there. True? I can't believe seeing her dragging her suitcase out of the room. I never thought it would happen. The plan was that we both leave the room together. But now everything changed.

I guess there's no happily ever after for us. For them. Probably she deserves better. I'll be happy when she is. I love you sis. Forever and always.

xoxo

August

It's been a while since i updated but i've just been too busy to actually do so. Class started about a week ago and i'm still pretty much busy starting to study. Yeap. That's right, Starting. hahahaha... Anyway i'll write in more when i have the time. A lot of pictures to share! =)

xoxo

Bomb drop in SEPTEMBER

Hey upper east siders, Gossip Girl here.

Your one and only source into the scandalous life of Manhattan's elite. The story today? What's happening during the summer holidays of our favourite IT girl and her best friends?



Gossip Girl Season 2 is coming back to us! It's coming back in September. Make sure you get yourself updated, cause you never know what will happen until you watch it yourself.

You know you love me,
XOXO

Headline Of The Day!

EZUAN IS STAYING IN CURTIN!

XOXO

Crazy, Crazier, Craziest

Today i had my day out with my sister Diela and my best-guy-friend Daus. The 3 of us together, makes the world go round. hahahaha... We're really good friends - and Daus is the type of guy who gets very silly most of the time - shopping partner! We went out around 12, went to pick up my sister from school, and then we went to eat - Tun Jugah FC! We got so vain, after a while not seeing each other - hahahahaha...- we took pictures in the lift.



Diela, Daus and Me



Adek(Diela) and Me

We're eating at the food court and video calling Ezu. We talked so loud until everyone could hear us. It was so embarrassing. We strolled around TJ finding bags and shoes. Eventually we decided to go to the Spring. More choices. First store we entered was the Roxy-Quicksilver shop. and that's where i found these pretty babies.



Asif says it's limited edition.



It's pretty!

So we went to Padini Concept store to find bag for Adek and guess who else we found there?



Stephy! She left Curtin and went to SwinB! A few of my friends did the same. Stacey, probably Daniel, Ezu's friend Tony, and some more. Stephy told me about the RWMF that she attended only on the first day. She just got back from Singapore and leaving for Penang tomorrow if i'm not mistaken. Haih... that's girl. She wants to be everywhere. HEHEHEHEHE...



Daus and Adek posing at the back of my car. HAHAHAHA



It's just me

XOXO

Music for the Week

The song "With Me" by Sum 41

I don't want this moment
To ever end
Where everything's nothing, without you
I wait here forever just to,
To see you smile
'Cause it's true
I am nothing without you

Through it all
I've made my mistakes
I'll stumble and fall
But I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Thoughts read unspoken
Forever and now
And pieces of memories
Fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so
I won't let this go
'Cause it's true
I am nothing without you

On the streets, where I walked alone
With nowhere to go
I've come to an end

I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

In front of you're eyes
It falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of you're eyes
It falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find
What you will find
What you will find
What you will find
What you will find

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everything's nothing, without you

I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go
I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

XOXO

Yummy yummy

Headline of the day



SUSHI!



California Maki



Salmon Sushi



Sake Sashimi



Sake Teriyaki

Too good for words! Yummy yummy

XOXO

Night Out

OMG! I never went out with friends, back home in Kuching, at night, till this time around. Went out at 6+ almost 7, and went back 5 minutes before 11. Heh... Went to Jenk's place while waiting for Van and Azfar.

Sent off my cousin and my aunt to the airport. So sad to see them leave. Haih... Won't be seeing my cute little niece anytime soon. =( My mom had to buy them an extra luggage bag because their hand luggage was too much. Hahahaha...

Anyways, me, Jenk, Van and Azfar went to McD to eat and as usual, i didn't finish my food. That's when i wish my baby and Dinesh were there. Miss those 2 so much! Van got herself a tatoo at her leg. It's a big phoenix and it looks great! heh... Will update soon enough.

XOXO

Boredom

I'm going back to miri soon, and i'm missing all my friends so much. Haih... Miss Abby, miss Dinesh, miss Fidah, miss everyone back home. Even miss Fariq and the others. =( I'm so bored at times that i wish i have class. Really. Or at least be in Miri and could give a hand to May, helping her prepare for orientation. I miss my family back in Miri.

About this friend of mine, hm... i know it's not right to talk about people but i just had to rite it down somewhere, just had to express it out somehow. I don't know what to say other than i'm not sure what to do with our "friendship". I still do care about her, but the way she treated me in the past, just doesn't calm my heart ache towards the whole thing. No friend would threatened the other right? No matter what the problem is, friends work it out. I did try to, but she just won't let me. But now, both of us are totally different people, so we can say, somehow we changed. For the better i hope. I love her, because she's one of my oldest friends, and i hope we can work things out.

About my family, i just don't get it. Sometimes everyone back home are okay, but most of the times, they're meanies! I have no idea what's going on back home. CAN'T WAIT TO GET OUT OF KUCHING! This place is turning into HELL! Hope one day it'll turn to HEAVEN again like it use to.

XOXO

ANNOYED!

I've had the worst evening of my life! When i got back from going out with my Aunt and my cousin (plus my niece), i was ready to lay back and relax, and when i went up, i saw something unusual on my bed. F#@K! It was Princess's poop! arghhhhhhhhhhhhh... I went crazy for a while. It was on my bed. OMG! i went through the whole process of taking off my bed sheet and the matress cover. THANK GOD it's double layered! So i washed the whole thing, and threw away my bed sheet and replaced it with a new one. And it was all set.

Then i went over to my uncle's place because he organized a family dinner, all my kid cousins and nieces and nephews were going crazy playing with paper planes. HAIH...



My nephews and my brother.

So my dad went back first, because my sister has school tomorrow. He left my grandmother with me because i was driving the Accord and he drove the Hilux. Turns out my grandmother doesn't trust me to drive her back home, and my brother and my aunts had to accompany us all the way home. I felt terrible. I felt like SH!T. damn it!!! I would like driving back home in peace alone and fast. There goes my chance.

And to top things up, when i got back home, PRINCESS POOPED AGAIN ON MY NEW COMFORTER! Damn it. I had to wash everything all over again. Haih... I'm still so pissed and cooling down!

I was talking with some old friends, who knew how much i miss some people so much! I really do, but i can't do anything about it.

XOXO

In the state of grief

Dearly beloved,

i gather you all to read this special post to dedicate to dear Mdm Aye (Curtin Foundation Lab Assistant). She was a dear friend of many students of Science Foundation Students who come and go from our college. Friends, remember how she use to help us out with our chemicals and instruments in the chemistry lab? She's always smiling. Remember how kind and friendly she is when she invites us to the Myanmar new year celebration in Curtin LT Foyer? It's just so sad how a person so awesome like her left us. In her memories, i request you all to think about her for a second and dedicate your prayers to her, in whatever language, whatever religion you are, for she is a dear friend of us.

Dear Colleagues,

We would like to share a sad news that Madam Aye Than Kyi, Zeya's wife passed away yesterday morning in Myanmar. Madam Aye was employed as Lab Technician with School of Foundation for 2 years before her contract ends in 2006.

Our heartfelt condolences to Zeya and his family.

Regards,
Maizatul Azni Abdul Mutalib
Acting Human Resource Manager

That's how all of us got the very sad news.



what she always helps us with. Your thoughts are with her

Unfortunately i don't have a picture of her to share it with you guys. I will Update soon. Okay? Condolences to Mr Zeya and his family.

XOXO

SIlly conversation

Abby buzzed me on MSN and we started talking. She asked me who got married and i told her about our friend getting married this weekend. We were wondering about where they're gonna live, how's the situation later on. And that's when my imagination fled beyond god-light(that's what Dinesh would say).

OUr conversation was like this:

Mea Katerina says:
i want oso marry
Mea Katerina says:
:(
Mea Katerina says:
but i want grand wedding
Mea Katerina says:
ahahahaha
abby says:
yea OK
Mea Katerina says:
so wait la after study
abby says:
-_-
abby says:
yea ok
Mea Katerina says:
:P
abby says:
crazy
abby says:
hahaha
abby says:
but whatever u wantla hahahaha
Mea Katerina says:
then mebe u cn be one of the bridesmaid
abby says:
jz dn divorce wtf
Mea Katerina says:
then dinesh jadi wan's best man
Mea Katerina says:
wakakakakakakakaka
abby says:
hahahaha!!
abby says:
ONE of the brides maids?!
Mea Katerina says:
u, fidah, dira, van
Mea Katerina says:
hahaahahahaha
abby says:
hahahaha
abby says:
/.faints
Mea Katerina says:
then dinesh, azfar n hoe can be wan's best men
Mea Katerina says:
hahahahahahaha
abby says:
hahahaha
abby says:
nice
Mea Katerina says:
i still cant imagine
Mea Katerina says:
if real kan,
Mea Katerina says:
what will happen on the stage
Mea Katerina says:
hahahaha
Mea Katerina says:
me n wan sitting down, u guys standing up..
abby says:
hahaha why!!
Mea Katerina says:
see see, me n wan sit up on stage, van n azfar also sit,
Mea Katerina says:
hahahahahahaha
Mea Katerina says:
then fidah can be vans maid of honor
Mea Katerina says:
n u can be mine
Mea Katerina says:
dinesh bcome wans best man, hoe become azfars
Mea Katerina says:
hahahahaha
abby says:
hahahahaha
abby says:
right ok -_-
Mea Katerina says:
omg... my imagination
abby says:
hahaha i know -_-

Poor Abby, she had to bare my crappy imagination. hahahahahaha... Well, still can't wait to start the next semester!


XOXO

Early mariages

The question suddenly triggers on my mind while i was chatting with Mr Roy, my Math lecturer during my foundation years. I asked him the question. Anyway, here's what he said:

Me and Mr Roy's conversation.

Mea Katerina says:
what's ur opinion on early mariages?

rob röy says:
not good

rob röy says:
u need ur own time to explore things outside

Mea Katerina says:
so u think people should get married at what time?

Mea Katerina says:
i mean age

rob röy says:
30

rob röy says:
let say u grade umur 22...start kerja maok2 pun naik pangkat after 4 years

rob röy says:
then at that time baru ada nampak duit lebih...then baruk dapat enjoy

Mea Katerina says:
mun org grad umo 25?

Mea Katerina says:
kesiannn

rob röy says:
haha

rob röy says:
yerp

Mea Katerina says:
so getting married at the age of 20 is a no-no for you?

rob röy says:
nope

rob röy says:
too soon

I know what he said is true and the fact that it's not the 21st century, no one buys the reason "early mariages is good" anymore. It is a proven fact that somewhere, somehow it will end up badly.

Anyway, my friend is getting married this saturday and i wish them all the happiness in the world. Girl i love you. You're one of my girlfriends, and dude, stop acting like a kid. HAHA... you know who you are!

XOXO

CANT WAIT!!!!

I'm so excited that Van the Man and Little Miss Bel are coming down for Rainforest Festival! yeeeeeeeeehaaaaaaaaaa.... Their flight are today 540PM from Miri. OMG i can't wait. Van and i had plans on Saturday and Van, Bel and I will go shopping soon, either Monday, or Tuesday, before Bel goes back. The last time Van was here, we didn't have much place to go. Well, actually, we still don't have much place to go. The Spring is big but not much thing in there. You have to admit that! Probably we can go play laser tag or something. HEHE



Miss V



Miss B

XOXO

My Euro Trip - Part 3

Still explaining Paris. I love being in Paris. Seriously. De Lourve, being there, i was so amazed on how medieval architecture was so attractive and unique. Somehow i wished i could experience living in the medieval days. The clothings are fabulous but over dressed if worn now. hahahahaha... =)



Part of De Louvre



Carvings on the ceiling of the outer part of the building.



Me in front of the glass pyramid.



Me and my mummy.



Papa and Mummy. =)



Me in front of the Mona Lisa.



Up side down glass pyramid.



Some random shop we passed by. It spells my name! cool!!!



The perfume factory we went to.



Paris from above! Nice right?



Me, my mom and some of our friend from the tour on the sky scraper in Paris.



All of us on the tour.



Vincent Vaan Gogh's house address.



The church on top of the hill with statues of Joan of Arc and King Henry the IV i think.. I'm not quite sure.



In front of Moulin Rouge. hahahaha...

That's about it in Paris. We'll be going to Switzerland next!

XOXO