Sometimes i feel like my heart will overflow.

Hello, I just got to let you know.

Cuz i'll wonder where you are and i'll wonder what you'll do.

Are you somewhere feeling lonely or is someone loving you.

Tell me how to win your heart for i haven't got a clue.

But let me start by saying i love you.

Is it me you're looking for?

I just finish watching Glee. SO LATE? I know right. I've been so caught up in my studies that series i bothered to download and keep myself up-to-date was only How I Met Your Mother, The Vampire Diaries and True Blood. HIMYM was because, let's face it, it's just Awesome! I mean seriously, come on, tell me you haven't heard of the whole Barney Stinson and his theories. As for the other two, i just like fantasies, i like fictions. I like Vampires! Twilight Saga is not exactly what i have in mind. Then again, the books are awesome though.

Jessy St. James sings well. He's got one awesome voice. Not to forget Neil Patrick Harris too.

What did you ask? Studies? Yea, you read right. I typed studies there. Hehe... Yes! Damn it. I studied okay. I know i know, Mea + Studying = Lying / Shocker. But yea, swallow the truth! I actually studied this time. Hardly ever miss class without a reasonable excuse.

...

And yes, i changed my course to Bachelor of Arts, Majoring in Mass Communication, PR Stream. If only i took this from the very beginning, I would actually graduate next semester. It's okay. Everything happens for a reason right?

So yea i answered issue no TWO already.

Until next time when i actually have more to say.

xoxo,

MK

Goodbye my friend, I know you're gone, you said you're gone but i can still feel you're here.

Dearest Matt,

I'm angry at you for leaving days before our exam. You promised that we would study together. And you bailed on me. For a nice guy like you, that's not a nice thing to do. I'm so mad at you for not taking good care of yourself. And for doing our assignments at the very last minute...

But i know you didn't want to leave just yet, but then He wants you to be with him, and it's already your time to go. I wished we would've studied earlier so that i could have the opportunity to hang out with you before you leave. I wished i wasn't back home in KCH that night. I wish i was here. I didnt even get to see you off. I miss you so dearly already. I miss the times i make fun of you when you came into my apartment. I miss the times i pretend i was angry at you just so you would argue with me. I miss the times when you suddenly pop up out of nowhere just to say hi to me. I miss the times we played monopoly and make Fyza angry. I miss the times we go partying together. I miss the times when you would just sit down and talk to me about anything. I miss the times when you give me advice which sometimes makes no sense.

I wish you were still here in front of me so that i can tell you how much we're all gonna miss you and how truly we love and appreciate you. I know for sure you're looking down on us and taking care of us from above. We really miss you Matt.

There will come a day
When you will be able, able to say
Never mind the pain, all the aggravation
You know there's a better way
For you and me to be

Look for the rainbow in every storm
Fly like an angel heaven sent to me

Goodbye my friend
I know you're gone, you said you're gone but I can still feel you here
It's not the end
You gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear
So glad we made it, time will never change it...

The times when we would play about
The way we used to scream and shout
We never dreamed you'd go your own sweet way..

You will surely be missed by all. May you rest in peace and whatever journey he has in-stored for you after this life, may it always be pleasant and our prayers are always with you.

In loving memory of Mathew Jose Katikkaran

My theme song!

Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
As the reds go marching on on on!

Just like the busby babes in days gone by,
We’ll keep the red flags flying high,
Your gonna see us all from far and wide,
Your gonna hear the masses sing with pride.

United, Man united,
We’re the boys in red and we're on our way to Wembley!

Wembley, Wembley,
We're the famous Man united and we're going to Wembley,
Wembley, Wembley,
We're the famous Man united and we're going to Wembley

In Seventy-Seven it was Docherty
Atkinson will make it Eighty-Three
And everyone will no just who we are,
They'll be singing que sera sera

United, Man united,
We’re the boys in red and we're on our way to Wembley!

Wembley, Wembley,
We're the famous Man united and we're going to Wembley,
Wembley, Wembley,
We're the famous Man united and we're going to Wembley

Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
As the reds go marching on on on!

Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
As the reds go marching on on on!

Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
As the reds go marching on on on!

...

We are the crowd
We're cuh-coming out
Got my flash on it's true
Need that picture of you
It's so magical
We'd be so fantastic, oh

Leather and jeans
your watch glamorous
Not sure what it means
But this photo of us
It don't have a price
Ready for those flashing lights
'Cause you know that baby I-

I'm your biggest fan
I'll follow you until you love me
Papa-Paparazzi
Baby there's no other superstar
You know that I'll be your-
Papa-Paparazzi

Promise I'll be kind
But I won't stop until that boy is mine
Baby you'll be famous
Chase you down until you love me
Papa-Paparazzi

I'll be your girl backstage at your show
Velvet ropes and guitars
Yeah cause you know I'm starting between the sets
Eyeliner and cigarettes

Shadow is burnt, yellow dance and return
My lashes are dry- But the teardrops I cry
It don't have a price
Loving you is Cherry Pie
'Cause you know that baby I
I'm your biggest fan
I'll follow you until you love me
Papa-Paparazzi
Baby there's no other superstar
You know that I'll be your
Papa-Paparazzi

Promise I'll be kind
But I won't stop until that boy is mine
Baby you'll be famous
Chase you down until you love me
Papa-paparazzi

Real good, We're dancing in the studio
Stop-stopped, That shit on the radio
Don't stop, for anyone
We'll Blast it but we'll still have fun

I'm your biggest fan
I'll follow you until you love me
Papa-Paparazzi
Baby there's no other superstar
You know that I'll be your
Papa-Paparazzi

Promise I'll be kind
But I won't stop until that boy is mine
Baby you'll be famous
Chase you down until you love me
Papa-paparazzi

Ever since the day you went away and left me lonely and cold, my life just hasn't been the same. Oh baby no..

When I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go, I just broke down

Today i woke up at 9 and thought it was still early, so i cuddled back into my blankie, and told myself just another half hour. The next thing i know, Van was knocking on my door, saying that my group mates are here. SMART? Hm.. I was exhausted from the charades game played last night and sleeping at 3am. It was fun you know. The charades game thingy. I was in Godwin's group, with Fyza, Baby Love and Jamie. Against Van, Abby, Danny, Dinesh and Karibi. Jorden was the judge. It was so fun!!! We won! so yea..

Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice 'cuz the feeling that I feel within no other man would ever make me feel so right. Its nice to smile when I get your phone call at night but I'd rather have you here with me, right next to me. I miss the way you hold me tight

I cooked today as usual.. Lemon Chicken, Veggie and CornBeef.. I was so hungry from not eating the whole day. And i played rugby late afternoon. Just to jog around. I miss having Fariq, Hoe and Azfar playing touch with us. Those three guys are like masters when playing. All the seniors, who's left now is Gala.. That's about it. Well, there are Cendol, Baby Love, Koyot, Karibi. But still, it's not the same. So yea.. Miss them boys.

Okay now i feel like the post is just useless and there's nothing to write about. Hahahaha..

Until next time.

Cherrio, XOXO

Voulez vous coucher avec moi? ce soir?

I had a good night sleep and finally enough for a fresh start for the day. But then again, when i woke up i heard Van's speaker on so i turned on mine as well. And the first song to be played was?

Better in Time - Leona Lewis

What the hell!!! Not a good way to start a day. The song reminds me of Hoe so the very the much! Hehehehe.. Before, i don't know how girls can have a boyfriend and still be so close to another guy as well, now i do. I miss him terribly. I bet all three of us does, Abby, Van and I.

(Current song : All I Have To Give - BSB)

Hoe is like my buddy! He can be annoying to me at times , well when he wants to be, but he can be very caring at times to. He makes sure i don't eat anything i'm not suppose to. Cuz he said he'll be the one in trouble of having to drive me to the hospital. Hahahaha.. I still remember what he says. Lots of memories with Hoe even when i'm only close to him for a year. The part where i was suppose to her flowers for him to give to Abby, but when Abby called i said i was taking stuff from my cousin. When she found out, she was like "Cousin ha! Oh you're taking stuff from your cousin!"

(Current song : Circus - Britney)

My cousin went back to Kuching cuz she's transfered there this is the most lonely i've ever felt in 2 years. There's no Hoe and Azfar, no Daniel, no Ina, even Fidah left. Like WOW! It's like no one is here anymore! But it's ok. It got me close to Van and Abby, Dinesh and Danny, Sedut, Syabil and Jay, also Tompoq. So yea. I still have friends around me. Thank goodness for that. I even befriended Amanda and Lyanis. Nice? I know. We had Abby's birthday at Soho, the gang and i bought presents for her also.

(Current song : Hot N Cold - Katy Perry)

We had trouble with the new tenants and the mother is super annoying. Oh come on, when i first came to Curtin, i was 17 as well and my dad just left me like that. I didn't have my dad to do laundry for me or feed me around. For god sakes, We're in Uni already, act like a Uni student please? Gosh! How protective can mothers be? It's not that i'm saying they're not suppose to be like that, but limits man. Maybe cuz i don't have my mom to pamper me for the past 8 years of my life, i grew up to be who i am now. I love my dad more than words can say. He's my dad and my mom, he's my friend and my bank. Hehehe.. But yea, after my mom passed away, my dad had to resume all the duties as a father, a mother and the person in control of the house, which used to be my mom's department. About consuming fags, well, the more people tell me to stop, the more i'll have them. I don't know why. Why am i so stubborn? For goodness sake, I want to stop but yea.. It's my sweet escape.

(Current song : As Long As You Love Me - BSB)

SwinB's started class and i'm glad for Ola, she'll be busy and not think too much about the Duo's. She tends to over think stuff and sometimes it's not good for her. Whatever it is, i'll try to be there for her whenever she needs me. Cuz that's what friends do!

(Current song : How Did I Fall In Love With You - BSB)

The Sayang bought me a present that makes me happy all around the clock! A Sony Ericsson Limited Edition Phone, Z555i. I love it so damn much! I love him till death do us part. He's the best i can ever have. He's not the jealous type, which makes my life easier, and very very understanding. We've been together for 17 months! It's a record for the both of us. With him i wanna spend the rest of my life. (wow, emo much? so mushy2) But yea, I can never ask for a better guy than him! How did i fall in love with you?

(Current Song : With Me - Sum41)

My classes are doing good. I don't intend to skip or flunk any units this semester, hopefully i can get my grades up high! Good luck to me!!!

Until next time

Cherrio, XOXO

All the boys and all the girls are begging to if you seek amy

Oh baby baby have you seen amy tonight? Is she in my bathroom, is she smoking up outside?

Hahahaha.. It's the song i first heard when i woke up which was at 12 noon? Seriously right! I'm still pretty swamp as well. Still feel like sleeping but i'm glad i didn't. Or else i would've missed the phone call from Curtin front desk. Yeay, my shoes finally arrived! I'm so happy. Thanks girl for doing me the favor! Miss miss you. Anyway, the room that i'm moving to next week was replaced on seccond floor instead of the third. THANK GOODNESS! I'll be sharing the house with Vanessa and Abby. I received a phone call this morning about a friend in Kuching. Oh what to do, that's just karma. I can't do much. All i did was listen and not get involve. I have much bigger things to think and worry about, i.e.: ACC (Financial) 250 exam next week. OMG! I miss eating scallop. Like fresh scallop. hahahaha.. I wish i was back home when it comes to food.

I was reading online about letters and it just came to my mind to check out love letters written by famous people. I found one by Ludwig van Beethoven.

Oh, God! look out into the beauties of nature and comfort yourself with that which must be -- love demands everything and that very justly -- that it is with me so far as you are concerned, and you with me. If we were wholly united you would feel the pain of it as little as I!

The words are very simple but it keeps on hold a very, very deep meaning that you can only translate to your understanding and it might not be what he was referring to. Medieval days, the language used was so meaningful and difficult to understand yet people nowadays have come to love and adore. What if we were to talk in that manner? People will say that we are crazy.

My soul aches with sorrow, and there can be no rest for you lover; but is there still more in store for me when, yielding to the profound feelings which overwhelm me, I draw from your lips, from your heart a love which consumes me with fire? Ah! it was last night that I fully realized how false an image of you your portrait gives! You are leaving at noon; I shall see you in three hours. Until then, mio dolce amor, a thousand kisses; but give me none in return, for they set my blood on fire

A letter written by the once feared ruler Napolean Bonaparte to Queen Josephine. As evil as he is, he had a heart to be in love with a woman. Nowadays we have many heartless men or in other words, womanizers.

From one thing to another. I had no idea what this post was about. Definitely not about love letters in the first place. Countdown to the 14th, 9 days to go. Excited much? Yeay..

Love me, hate me but can't you see what i see?
All the boys and the all girls are begging to if you seek amy
Oh say what you want about amy, oh can't you see what i see?
Oh say what you want about amy, all the boys and all the girls are begging to if you seek amy
Love me, hate me but can't you see what i see?
All the boys and the all girls are begging to if you seek amy

Cherrio, XOXO

Song Of The Month

Keeps Getting Better - Christina Aguilera

Step Back! gonna come at ya fast
I’m driving out of control, and getting ready to crash
wont stop, shaking up what I can
I serve it up in a shot
So suck it up like a man

so baby yes I know what I am, and no I don’t give a damn
and you’ll be loving it

Some days I’m a super bitch
Up to my own tricks
but it wont last forever
next day I’m your super girl
and out to save the world and it keeps getting better

Kiss kiss, gonna tell you right now
I make it sweet on the lips, ill simply knock you out
Shut up! I dont care what you say
cuz when were both in the wind
you gonna like it my way
yeah baby theres a feeling in me
So sexy sour and sweet, and you’ll be lovin’ it

Some days I’m a super bitch
Up to my own tricks
but it wont last forever
next day I’m your super girl
out to save the world and it keeps getting better

Hooold on
keeps gettin better
Hooold on
keeps gettin better

in the break of the night
in the speed of the light
i hold the universe up
make the your planets collide.
When I strap on my boots
and I slip on my suit
You see the vixen in me
Becomes an angel for you

Some days I’m a super bitch
Up to my own tricks
but it wont last forever
next day I’m your super girl
out to save the world and it keeps getting better

Some days I’m a super bitch
Up to my own tricks
but it wont last forever
next day I’m your super girl
out to save the world and it keeps getting better

Hooooooold on
keeps gettin better
Hooooooold on
keeps gettin better


xoxo

Music for the Week

The song "With Me" by Sum 41

I don't want this moment
To ever end
Where everything's nothing, without you
I wait here forever just to,
To see you smile
'Cause it's true
I am nothing without you

Through it all
I've made my mistakes
I'll stumble and fall
But I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Thoughts read unspoken
Forever and now
And pieces of memories
Fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so
I won't let this go
'Cause it's true
I am nothing without you

On the streets, where I walked alone
With nowhere to go
I've come to an end

I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

In front of you're eyes
It falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of you're eyes
It falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find
What you will find
What you will find
What you will find
What you will find

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everything's nothing, without you

I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go
I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment, you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

XOXO